feelings

finally... got sum sleep for this exhausted working week.
finally... got sum time to spend with my dear friends.
finally... i run free from d routine of giving, showing my love to bf and spending most of my time with him......
finally... have sum peaceful time to get updates thru fb and blogs.
finally... can think with a calm mindset.

i used to say, i am not the kind who spends time more to my bf than friends.
i thought i can be the exceptional one. but in fact i didn't.
when i have a bf, im so committed in it, i wanted to spend most of my time with him, just to make him feel secure, just to see his smile.
now that i dun have one, i finally can breathe and put my friends back in my schedule.
im so sorry friends... i love ya'll.

i have so much and so much of feelings going on in me right now, its not all negative but not all positive either. just feel like expressing... its kinda emotional... i feel like telling it all to those i wanna tell.. but its impossible for now.

used to make myself a good gf, now wan to make myself a good friend, a good colleague, a good daughter, a good student, a good teacher... its SO SO SO hard to fulfill everyone.
in fact, it is impossible to fulfill everyone at the same time.
when u have 10 ppl supporting u, u might have 9 ppl disagreeing.
no matter how hard i control myself, i try my best to make everyone happy... to make the situation better, i cannot make it the best.
bcuz i am stil a normal human being.
i still have temper, i still have my own personality.

yet im not giving up.

i'll keep on improve into become a better person.
n i hope ppl around me do the same.
more positive energy around the world, more peace comes to mind.
It's all about LOVE.

i love my family, i love my friends and I LOVE MYSELF.