everyday is an inspiring day

I've not been blogging for ages.
I forgot for how long already, i don't have the time to online as long as i want without worrying what to do next and what i have not done or forgotten to do, until this few days :)

I'm in Bolton, UK now. staying with my long lost senior from my high school and also college, who was coincidently someone from TT also. I guess that is what ppl always says, 'each and everyone of us in the world are related in some way' i really believe this is true. Especially when nowadays u get to know ppl more just by getting their FB acc and POP! u see almost everything about them XD if they want to let u know.

UPSR, PMR, SPM, DIPLOMA, ADVANCED DIPLOMA, DEGREE -> Finally, I've finished my studies ^^ yes i am SUPER GLAD and PROUD of myself that i could go so far. i might have wanted to take masters XD IF i'm financially supported and also IF i don't love DANCING that much but unfortunately I DO. so forget it. s long s i know where i want to go to.

3 months of studying and living in Liverpool, United Kingdom
1 whole month of vacation in Europe countries Paris, Italy, Switzerland, Belgium, Germany, Austria, Spain...
1 month of extra RELAXING holidays in UK
these are things i NEVER thought i would experience, but I DID and i'm still experiencing now.
althou i would have to work my ass off to pay up all of these in d future, it's still totally worth it.
I can never be more grateful to have all of these in my life and i'm proud to say i've treasured every single moment of that more than enough :) no regrets.

that day my friend asked me,
when was the time or the period that you think it was the worst in your lifetime?
where you had all the bad things happening on you and what you did is never right.
you must have that time. everyone has that.
honestly?
NO.
again? still NO.
yes there were some bad times. just for that VERY SHORT moment. few hours? few days tops.

there are always TWO SIDES for everything.
GOOD SIDE and BAD SIDE.
when u're experiencing negative things, or things which u think its not happy not good. TRY to think on the good side. don't restrict yourself to think more than the bad side.
i know. u will start shouting at me 'OF COURSE U CAN SAY SO. BECAUSE NOW IT'S NOT UR PROBLEM. U ARE NOT THE UNLUCKY OR SAD ONE.'
well it's true. that's ur problem so u should be the one who think about it urself. i had my own problems too. i've done it and i think it works. it's up to u whether u want to do it or not. i can't help u if u don't want to help urself :)
because this is how i think and how i told ppl to think. it might not be right, but that's my way.

watched Bridesmaid just now. this is what i got ;)
'Don't blame the world for your problems.
You are your problem. You are also your solution.'
i also think it's hard to think like this all the time.
but i will try my best ^^ to be a better person <3


i enjoy walking alone in nice weather.
today i've walked to the town area alone, by looking through google map before going out, and then went wrong way once and reached :) coming back took the wrong way few times XD and i ended up at the same place 3 TIMES! haha. but at last i still manage to walk home without taking bus or cab.
i have less than a month left here in UK. i know i'm gonna miss this country SO SO SO MUCH since the first day i stepped in here because i love almost EVERYTHING about here. therefore every minute every second i'm here i feel happy and i would treasure that to the most because i don't know when would i come here again :)

about the last him. have i gone through it?
i think yes. but i can't help feeling not so good everytime i see his photo appearing anywhere.
does ONE AND A HALF YEAR matter that much?
or because its twice already?
or just because it is still consider recent?
after half a year already still recent @.@
most of the time i've gone over that. it's just the slight feelings.
when i see couples around me. whether they are super sweet or facing arguement, i think about relationship.
i know i will still want a bf. but sometimes i feel tired thinking about relationships.
i know i am still lucky to be loved from some. i know i should treasure ppl i have.
but i don't know when i will have the urge to start a relationship again.
i don't want to put all my love into this him and put all the future and hopes into him and then it breaks again :'(
but i know i cannot think like that. *sigh*
love myself first :)

i know hopes will always be there ^^
signing off.
i love everyone! ^^

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